>So today I checked an old account of mine… which I do periodically. There was an IM from someone I used to know that was left nine days ago. It said:

“Hey, don’t know if you still check this account but if you do I just wanted to say I’m sorry. I hope everything is going good for you. Chris”.

I sat there kinda surprised for a moment… I had not heard from this guy in.. oh… six years. Not to mention that I have no idea what he has to be sorry for? AND has he been thinking about this said thing that he should be sorry for over that many years? Honestly, I’m at a loss.

I met Chris through friends in college. I was having troubles with my ex… around then. In the process of our friendship growing… my relationship ended but would later end up reuniting.. (which of course you know by now was a bad idea).

Essentially Chris became a rebound… even if I did like him. We spent time together and of course had sex a handful of times. Nothing really came of it…. perhaps that is what he is sorry for.. who knows.

At some point my weak ass ended up having sex with the ex again.. and hence became knocked up. And before you get any ideas.. yes.. my ex is my daughter’s father. I know this with every inch of my being.

From that point Chris and I kind of went our separate ways…. BEFORE I knew I was pregnant. I thought about him off an on for a bit… but soon his memory faded into oblivion till… today. So here I sit. Wondering. I’m not sure what his motivations are after so many years have passed… it seems very odd to me. I know that I would not contact someone out of the blue like that even if I felt I should have done things differently. Chances are…. that would change nothing… or, like me, they would have no idea what was going on. (LOL).

So who knows if I’ll ever find out…. I mean… I’d like to know… but I’m not going to lose sleep over it by any means. I guess life is kind of random sometimes.

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